IT'S MY LIFE ! ! ! ! ! !

I try to venture into a world , not mine:
Neglected, unaccepted i desperately try to shine.
I crave for love , i look for a mate
But i've been left alone , 'they' have decided my fate!

Darkness stands by me
Loneliness soothes my pain;
'They' spat on me and had left
As i stand alone in the rain!
Smiles had been wiped out ,love forbidden
to enter me; Happiness lay hidden
far beneath me ~~
I ask my mind "Why?"
Speechless, it answers in just a sigh:
Betrayal is what i've been gifted
From life,I had long drifted.
Tears run down my eyes
and wet my body`
Heart still beats incessantly
in me,a corpse formed a;ready !

What if I am like this?
What if I am not like 'them'?
Why do 'I' need to change?
To these, 'they' only smile
and force me to walk mile after mile
ALONE ! !

I am the CHOSEN ONE --- 'they' justify:
chosen to pacify others,to be the ONE 'they' can rely.
But I say "NO"!
I am chosen to suffer , to cry;
Chosen tobe suppressed every time i try,
Chosen to accept tears and gloom
Leading my life to a devastating doom!

i still desperately try to venture
but again,i'm naturally neglected and kicked out
of LIFE , itself ! !