रात कि इस महफिल में
गूँज रही है खामोशी
इस आलम कि ऐसी है मदहोशी
आज नशा भी नशे में हैं!!
इसी रोज़ आस्मान के तले
चांदनी के चादर ओढे
बैठा हूँ मैं---
तन्हा!
इतना तन्हा, जैसे तन्हाई ने साथ छोड़ दिया हो।
बेहिसाब ज़िंदगी के भागम भाग में
ज़िंदगी बहुत पीछे छोड़ गया हैं मुझे
अकेला!
दो आँखें आज नम नहीं
फिर भी पलकें भारी लग रहे हैं;
चेहेरें पे अभी हैं मुस्कान
लेकिन दिल में कुछ चुभ रही हैं
बेज़ुबान लव्ज़ आज कहना चाहता है, कुछ
गुम हो गया था जो सुर कभी
आज वही साज़ छेड़ना चाहता है यह मन
चूमना चाहता हूँ वोही होंठ
जिसपे कभी मेरा नाम नहीं आया
छोना चाहता हूँ वह बदन
जिसके लिए कभी तड़पा हैं मेरा यह जिस्म;
महसूस करना चाहता हूँ वोही सासें
वोही गर्माहट, जो कभी मेरा नहीं हो पाया
बेशुमार प्यार करना चाहता हूँ, एकबार-एक आखरी बार
साथ बिताये हुए उन्ही लम्हों में खो जान चाहता हूँ
न जाने वह लम्हे कब वापस आये?
शायद यह मेरा आखरी अल्विदा हो!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Thursday, November 8, 2007
NARROW ESCAPE
i dared to go out for a walk after a disturbed night. eyes were weary, body tired, yet i needed to breathe some fresh air. i stumbled against the door, but still i set my foot out. the morning air- the chill in it - completely erased the botherations of the past days. i felt somewhat relaxed. the throbbing of my head stopped, the taunt nerves relaxed, i got carried away. i responded to the beckon of mother nature and moved on . oblivious of the fact that i had gone far away, i kept moving as if i have set out to prove newton's first law of motion. the fog thinned and the radiance of the morning sun spread all over. the warmth of the day seeped in and i perspired.
i felt a jolt inside and as usual, i ignored it. but soon, my feet grew heavier and my steps staggered. i halted. my head had started spinning. brushing it away, i tried to drag myself on but it was to difficult for me to overcome the inertia. suddenly, i felt fatigued and immensely impuissant--rather weak. i hired a rickshaw to go back. as the three-wheeler pedalled forward, the air brushed against my face and ruffled through my hair. but i felt no better. for the first time , i experienced complete black-out. i could see nothing. i had been using the term 'blurred vision' in many of my poems--but realised it in full form, for the first time. a thick opaque curtain had fallen across my eyes, as if. i felt so numb. i had held to the seat but felt my grip loosen. my ears were blocked as if tympanum had decided not to vibrate. for the first time i found myself completely cut-off from the outside--which i frequently describe as 'mundane'. i could feel my body slumping on to one side and i fell unconscious. i was shaken back to full sense by a cry and shrill horn of the truck that had just sped past my body, half hanging out of the vehicle. i realised how it had just missed smashing my head. poor luck, truckie!
awed at the narro\w escape and even more surprised at my luck--i could not stop laughing. by then, i had started feeling better-the dizziness dying down. i could sit upright.
i thank you all people who p[ray for my welfare. your 'fariyad's worked wonders today. but i felt extremely bad. why?????????????
i had just missed "knocking on heaven's door"!
i felt a jolt inside and as usual, i ignored it. but soon, my feet grew heavier and my steps staggered. i halted. my head had started spinning. brushing it away, i tried to drag myself on but it was to difficult for me to overcome the inertia. suddenly, i felt fatigued and immensely impuissant--rather weak. i hired a rickshaw to go back. as the three-wheeler pedalled forward, the air brushed against my face and ruffled through my hair. but i felt no better. for the first time , i experienced complete black-out. i could see nothing. i had been using the term 'blurred vision' in many of my poems--but realised it in full form, for the first time. a thick opaque curtain had fallen across my eyes, as if. i felt so numb. i had held to the seat but felt my grip loosen. my ears were blocked as if tympanum had decided not to vibrate. for the first time i found myself completely cut-off from the outside--which i frequently describe as 'mundane'. i could feel my body slumping on to one side and i fell unconscious. i was shaken back to full sense by a cry and shrill horn of the truck that had just sped past my body, half hanging out of the vehicle. i realised how it had just missed smashing my head. poor luck, truckie!
awed at the narro\w escape and even more surprised at my luck--i could not stop laughing. by then, i had started feeling better-the dizziness dying down. i could sit upright.
i thank you all people who p[ray for my welfare. your 'fariyad's worked wonders today. but i felt extremely bad. why?????????????
i had just missed "knocking on heaven's door"!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
U n I
with every moment passing by
i started to rely
upon you!
with every hour that is spent together
promising to let our love end never
i have loved you !
with every day being enriched by your presence
filling my life life with happiness and magnificence
i have lived life with you!
and,
now with every word that i pen down for you
i feel more and more only for you!
[ had felt this for someone earlier
revisiting those areas of passion all over again, but for someone else !]
the morning hues
"no"----
i sat upright
holding onto my bed, tight -
my heart pounding within my ribs
hard.
a nightmare- so black, so scray, so real!
panting, i left the pillow
dragged my living self to the window
to drift my mind away~~
a glimpse of the outside sky
silenced my inner cry
almost instantly.
the black-n-blue-blend so vast
instrigated my 'wanderlust'
and so, into the garden i went
to enjoy the beauty to my heart's content.
the trees under the dawn's dim glow
beyond themthe ever rolling 'meadow'
of houses, all were silent;
until the crows cawed in the morn
ushering in the day--the new born.
but the fog wanted to a bit more 'mist'ic
and enjoy the silent magic
further!
it encroached on all
the ponds, the roads, the bricks in the wall--
how i wanted to have a sneak peak
though i was enjoying the hide n seek
with the white curtain!
the otherwise busy city lay still
as if enjoying the air- so very tranquil
living their leisure to the fullest.
suddenly, the fiery ball peeped in
from behind the clouds, where it had been,
the radiance made the moment so fine
the windows reflected its shine:
the early red gave way to the golden
pulling up the still bedridden
gifting them a very good morning!
the warmth slowly trickled in
and the dewdrops sparkled
refreshing the green.
the grass danced to the breeze
and i stood there at ease
comfy, relaxed and enjoying.
the nascent azure bathed the world
with the morning colours,
the magic set in as the flora unfurled
clearing the initial blurs!
the sweet chirps touched the earpore
colours brightwas what butterflies wore
to lighten the heavy hearts!
such was nature's bounty, so untarnished
that i was oblivious of the smile
that had come over my face,
wiping out the last trace
of what had waken me up, earlier.
the sunshine presented
smiles many and tears few
perhaps that was the charisma
of tha morning hue! !
i sat upright
holding onto my bed, tight -
my heart pounding within my ribs
hard.
a nightmare- so black, so scray, so real!
panting, i left the pillow
dragged my living self to the window
to drift my mind away~~
a glimpse of the outside sky
silenced my inner cry
almost instantly.
the black-n-blue-blend so vast
instrigated my 'wanderlust'
and so, into the garden i went
to enjoy the beauty to my heart's content.
the trees under the dawn's dim glow
beyond themthe ever rolling 'meadow'
of houses, all were silent;
until the crows cawed in the morn
ushering in the day--the new born.
but the fog wanted to a bit more 'mist'ic
and enjoy the silent magic
further!
it encroached on all
the ponds, the roads, the bricks in the wall--
how i wanted to have a sneak peak
though i was enjoying the hide n seek
with the white curtain!
the otherwise busy city lay still
as if enjoying the air- so very tranquil
living their leisure to the fullest.
suddenly, the fiery ball peeped in
from behind the clouds, where it had been,
the radiance made the moment so fine
the windows reflected its shine:
the early red gave way to the golden
pulling up the still bedridden
gifting them a very good morning!
the warmth slowly trickled in
and the dewdrops sparkled
refreshing the green.
the grass danced to the breeze
and i stood there at ease
comfy, relaxed and enjoying.
the nascent azure bathed the world
with the morning colours,
the magic set in as the flora unfurled
clearing the initial blurs!
the sweet chirps touched the earpore
colours brightwas what butterflies wore
to lighten the heavy hearts!
such was nature's bounty, so untarnished
that i was oblivious of the smile
that had come over my face,
wiping out the last trace
of what had waken me up, earlier.
the sunshine presented
smiles many and tears few
perhaps that was the charisma
of tha morning hue! !
drafted eternity
i had long wanted to feel you
touch you places forbidden
that lay hidden
from the world outside.
they so very enthral me
that i am often found dumb
the high valleys , the deep curves
have all excited my names
for ages;
but now, when i stand so near
with just the skin covering you up, my dear
i am tense.
the brownness of your body
took me so unready
that i lay startled
as you invited me in
to commit the original sin
i felt divine
as i kissed you from head to toe
with the greed growing more and more
you tasted like wine!
you were tender and hard was i
nerves were taunt as i made a try
to push open the curtain:
to get in there , you helped me out
with yourself wide spread out
carefully showing off the pink
it felt wet and mild
turned on , i felt wild
to the extreme
my maleness throbbed
as you robbed
me of my calm
.
you were biting on to my pride
i felt power inside
and felt brave and dared
to fill in you myself
your body shivered and you moaned
in joyful pain, when you groaned
i fell in love again
as you lay by me much quiet
after the prowl and hunt
just like a resting lionness
i thanked God for His grace
to have given me this moment-
the moment of eternal pleasure
the moment i would always treasure
.
the moment of extreme emotions
the moment of pure devotion
the moment of complete belonging to you
the moment of my life
touch you places forbidden
that lay hidden
from the world outside.
they so very enthral me
that i am often found dumb
the high valleys , the deep curves
have all excited my names
for ages;
but now, when i stand so near
with just the skin covering you up, my dear
i am tense.
the brownness of your body
took me so unready
that i lay startled
as you invited me in
to commit the original sin
i felt divine
as i kissed you from head to toe
with the greed growing more and more
you tasted like wine!
you were tender and hard was i
nerves were taunt as i made a try
to push open the curtain:
to get in there , you helped me out
with yourself wide spread out
carefully showing off the pink
it felt wet and mild
turned on , i felt wild
to the extreme
my maleness throbbed
as you robbed
me of my calm
.
you were biting on to my pride
i felt power inside
and felt brave and dared
to fill in you myself
your body shivered and you moaned
in joyful pain, when you groaned
i fell in love again
as you lay by me much quiet
after the prowl and hunt
just like a resting lionness
i thanked God for His grace
to have given me this moment-
the moment of eternal pleasure
the moment i would always treasure
.
the moment of extreme emotions
the moment of pure devotion
the moment of complete belonging to you
the moment of my life
Thursday, October 25, 2007
the rage,tamed
i stood on the epicentre
feeling the vibes beneath
sensing the burning lava below
resting in the cradle of filth
the crust burst open
revealing an orange glow
rock spurt into the air
the heat seeping from beneath
the ashes greyed the sky
the vision blurred
the silence misinterpret to be the end
the rage yet again stirred
clouds descended - cold and black
devouring the mortal me
the bones were crushed
the blood drained
the agony terribly pained
the silence helped me smile
sufocated me to sleep
i sang my swan song
and passedd into a slumber-so very deep!
feeling the vibes beneath
sensing the burning lava below
resting in the cradle of filth
the crust burst open
revealing an orange glow
rock spurt into the air
the heat seeping from beneath
the ashes greyed the sky
the vision blurred
the silence misinterpret to be the end
the rage yet again stirred
clouds descended - cold and black
devouring the mortal me
the bones were crushed
the blood drained
the agony terribly pained
the silence helped me smile
sufocated me to sleep
i sang my swan song
and passedd into a slumber-so very deep!
FACT
"you think about yourself"-the words shattered me-i had thought so.i used to feel so cheated until yesterday when i learnt how selfish i had been for the past couple of months.how callous i had been to always speak about myself.moreover, i had been so shameless trying to hide the fact by putting the blame on life!
how could i mis the urge for a hug, in his eyes?how could i not support his staggering steps?how could i not notice that the smile that hovered on his face actually hid his tears?how could i not??how did i fail to decode his gestures-the art i claim to have mastered!i had been so cruel to tire the already fatigued figure."please speak up,mate"-words that actually indicated that he had loads to say, but i never gave him the opportunity.he wanted to rest his head:i gave him my shoulders-cold and stern.
even after all this,i take pride in my name!strange!
i always complained about his silence, his being aloof. but had i ever given it a thought that it was me, my incessant blabberings about my woes that silenced him!how stupid of me not to realise that i had robbed him of his vocabulary by my constant pesterings.again, a single word when reciprocated with,infuriates me: yet i want him to talk!its me-the hypocrite.how much i detested it then and how apt it appears now!i burdened him with my likes and dislikes,yet brewed the idea that i helped him unburden.
layers of cloth cover my skin now,yet i feel so naked!
i caused the smiling bespectacled face lose its shine.i was his death-eater and kissed his soul out.i turned him into a living libido.i never scanned beyond the cross compound barrier.i comforted him with words that actualy pinched his inside!i had drained him of all his emotions.
the air is filled with the fragrance of the early spring, yet i stink!
it was her nod that approved my decision-the apparent 'mutual' decision.
her loss of words and her gazing down,gave n\me the joy of having my words followed.her eyes reddened and her face,downcast escaped my notice.my vision was blocked with improbable aspects that i never realised what i had just done!i stabbed her , betrayed her and she enriched me with her smile-unadulterated.
i felt so chaep,so shhepish.i felt like a sucker.
"you know what. . ."-no sooner had this phrase escaped her lips than i spurt out ll my pains, my worries withot considering that she wanted to say something!
i claim to be a friend in need, but never found myself by a person in his times of necessity.how can i?to do so,one needs to have a listening ear-i have turned deaf by my own screams-useles cries of my soul!to help,one's heart needs to skip a beat or two-my heart never beats,it merely sounds 'lubb-dubb'.to see someone in pain, one needs caring eyes-my sight is blurred with obedient lacrymal secretions-the crocodile tears.i boasted about my 'huge' friends' circle,but now i find myself fetterd within a circle of diameter of i foot.
i smothered 'them',choked 'them'with agonizing pain,approached them according to my wish yet i sing out"am tired of being what you want me to be"--i lived upto my hypocrisy,disrespected their belief,blemished their friendship----i actually failed 'them'.
will anyone take me.the 'i'centric creature as his "mit"?the rhetoric is evident!
how could i mis the urge for a hug, in his eyes?how could i not support his staggering steps?how could i not notice that the smile that hovered on his face actually hid his tears?how could i not??how did i fail to decode his gestures-the art i claim to have mastered!i had been so cruel to tire the already fatigued figure."please speak up,mate"-words that actually indicated that he had loads to say, but i never gave him the opportunity.he wanted to rest his head:i gave him my shoulders-cold and stern.
even after all this,i take pride in my name!strange!
i always complained about his silence, his being aloof. but had i ever given it a thought that it was me, my incessant blabberings about my woes that silenced him!how stupid of me not to realise that i had robbed him of his vocabulary by my constant pesterings.again, a single word when reciprocated with,infuriates me: yet i want him to talk!its me-the hypocrite.how much i detested it then and how apt it appears now!i burdened him with my likes and dislikes,yet brewed the idea that i helped him unburden.
layers of cloth cover my skin now,yet i feel so naked!
i caused the smiling bespectacled face lose its shine.i was his death-eater and kissed his soul out.i turned him into a living libido.i never scanned beyond the cross compound barrier.i comforted him with words that actualy pinched his inside!i had drained him of all his emotions.
the air is filled with the fragrance of the early spring, yet i stink!
it was her nod that approved my decision-the apparent 'mutual' decision.
her loss of words and her gazing down,gave n\me the joy of having my words followed.her eyes reddened and her face,downcast escaped my notice.my vision was blocked with improbable aspects that i never realised what i had just done!i stabbed her , betrayed her and she enriched me with her smile-unadulterated.
i felt so chaep,so shhepish.i felt like a sucker.
"you know what. . ."-no sooner had this phrase escaped her lips than i spurt out ll my pains, my worries withot considering that she wanted to say something!
i claim to be a friend in need, but never found myself by a person in his times of necessity.how can i?to do so,one needs to have a listening ear-i have turned deaf by my own screams-useles cries of my soul!to help,one's heart needs to skip a beat or two-my heart never beats,it merely sounds 'lubb-dubb'.to see someone in pain, one needs caring eyes-my sight is blurred with obedient lacrymal secretions-the crocodile tears.i boasted about my 'huge' friends' circle,but now i find myself fetterd within a circle of diameter of i foot.
i smothered 'them',choked 'them'with agonizing pain,approached them according to my wish yet i sing out"am tired of being what you want me to be"--i lived upto my hypocrisy,disrespected their belief,blemished their friendship----i actually failed 'them'.
will anyone take me.the 'i'centric creature as his "mit"?the rhetoric is evident!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
FREE SECONDS
i lived life in moments
in patches of lush green
amidst hours slogging
some experiences unseen!
i lived life in drops
wet all through---
hanging from the vessel
emotions so very true.
i lived life warm:
with hot 'puris' and steamy 'chai'
one puff of smoke i wanted to have
he said,"dont dare you try!"
joy befriended---
made friends with me!
though for a split second
it left me feeling free.
i lived life wading
dragging myself in knee-deep;
wished to hold the moments
in a few megapixels
but alas!had to live them
through my 'unspectacled' vision!!
seconds later, left he y\turned, and as
he vanished into the concrete
my lip curve straightened!
the continuity was broken
all became discrete.
the 'hollow' me reborn
very low i had to stoop;
gone was he- my 'mit'
straight i had to move....
in patches of lush green
amidst hours slogging
some experiences unseen!
i lived life in drops
wet all through---
hanging from the vessel
emotions so very true.
i lived life warm:
with hot 'puris' and steamy 'chai'
one puff of smoke i wanted to have
he said,"dont dare you try!"
joy befriended---
made friends with me!
though for a split second
it left me feeling free.
i lived life wading
dragging myself in knee-deep;
wished to hold the moments
in a few megapixels
but alas!had to live them
through my 'unspectacled' vision!!
seconds later, left he y\turned, and as
he vanished into the concrete
my lip curve straightened!
the continuity was broken
all became discrete.
the 'hollow' me reborn
very low i had to stoop;
gone was he- my 'mit'
straight i had to move....
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
THE RAIN
the waters came pouring down
wiping away the frown
from earth's face.
thirsty nature revived
life getting its respite
greenness wasn't replaced.
the sky so azure
air so very pure
it seemed worth living again!
the past has been so bleak
the present so fresh
i was reborn
on the day i was actually born some twenty seasons ago.
all the gray erased
all the ugly 'out-phased'
i felt happy
rejuvenation was in full swing
plucking the right string
i felt worth being
what i am!
this rain,
the best ever gift
making my mind drift
from the mundane
i thankled The Rain!
wiping away the frown
from earth's face.
thirsty nature revived
life getting its respite
greenness wasn't replaced.
the sky so azure
air so very pure
it seemed worth living again!
the past has been so bleak
the present so fresh
i was reborn
on the day i was actually born some twenty seasons ago.
all the gray erased
all the ugly 'out-phased'
i felt happy
rejuvenation was in full swing
plucking the right string
i felt worth being
what i am!
this rain,
the best ever gift
making my mind drift
from the mundane
i thankled The Rain!
RAPT IN BLUE
Marooned on the blue bed, we four
lived life a bit more!
stealing smiles simple-
sharing moments precious-
had the time of our livs .
the innocence lit up the room
taking us miles away from the gloom
of our 'humane' selves.
the notations went blurred
as the calmnes of the room stirred
our very own insides !
the algos went unanalyzed
our grey cells paralyzed
we set sail to Infinity
leaving behind the mundane city>
the embroidery of the blue
gifted us reasons few
to feel less comfy
hours flew and we were to leave
with memories the moments weave
Time and now!!!!
lived life a bit more!
stealing smiles simple-
sharing moments precious-
had the time of our livs .
the innocence lit up the room
taking us miles away from the gloom
of our 'humane' selves.
the notations went blurred
as the calmnes of the room stirred
our very own insides !
the algos went unanalyzed
our grey cells paralyzed
we set sail to Infinity
leaving behind the mundane city>
the embroidery of the blue
gifted us reasons few
to feel less comfy
our volitions fulfilled
we felt free!hours flew and we were to leave
with memories the moments weave
Time and now!!!!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
IT'S MY LIFE ! ! ! ! ! !
I try to venture into a world , not mine:
Neglected, unaccepted i desperately try to shine.
I crave for love , i look for a mate
But i've been left alone , 'they' have decided my fate!
Darkness stands by me
Loneliness soothes my pain;
'They' spat on me and had left
As i stand alone in the rain!
Smiles had been wiped out ,love forbidden
to enter me; Happiness lay hidden
far beneath me ~~
I ask my mind "Why?"
Speechless, it answers in just a sigh:
Betrayal is what i've been gifted
From life,I had long drifted.
Tears run down my eyes
and wet my body`
Heart still beats incessantly
in me,a corpse formed a;ready !
What if I am like this?
What if I am not like 'them'?
Why do 'I' need to change?
To these, 'they' only smile
and force me to walk mile after mile
ALONE ! !
I am the CHOSEN ONE --- 'they' justify:
chosen to pacify others,to be the ONE 'they' can rely.
But I say "NO"!
I am chosen to suffer , to cry;
Chosen tobe suppressed every time i try,
Chosen to accept tears and gloom
Leading my life to a devastating doom!
i still desperately try to venture
but again,i'm naturally neglected and kicked out
of LIFE , itself ! !
Neglected, unaccepted i desperately try to shine.
I crave for love , i look for a mate
But i've been left alone , 'they' have decided my fate!
Darkness stands by me
Loneliness soothes my pain;
'They' spat on me and had left
As i stand alone in the rain!
Smiles had been wiped out ,love forbidden
to enter me; Happiness lay hidden
far beneath me ~~
I ask my mind "Why?"
Speechless, it answers in just a sigh:
Betrayal is what i've been gifted
From life,I had long drifted.
Tears run down my eyes
and wet my body`
Heart still beats incessantly
in me,a corpse formed a;ready !
What if I am like this?
What if I am not like 'them'?
Why do 'I' need to change?
To these, 'they' only smile
and force me to walk mile after mile
ALONE ! !
I am the CHOSEN ONE --- 'they' justify:
chosen to pacify others,to be the ONE 'they' can rely.
But I say "NO"!
I am chosen to suffer , to cry;
Chosen tobe suppressed every time i try,
Chosen to accept tears and gloom
Leading my life to a devastating doom!
i still desperately try to venture
but again,i'm naturally neglected and kicked out
of LIFE , itself ! !
REALISATION REFLECTED
I met my reflection that day,
looking at me in a strange way
as if asking "Who are you?"
Shocked,I replied "I am you!!!"
But behind those brown eyes
that were supposedly mine--
I didn't see any joy arise;
There came no shine!
Rather they scoffed back at me
questioning,"How could that be?"
Justifying, i said "My virtual self is what you are!"
"Is it?That's why you left me so far?"
An accusation ! ! A blame!
How dare it? REVENGE!!
I rebuked "you dont realise yourself? O what a shame!"
I thought to have set its ego aflame.
Surprisingly,it burst into laughter
and mocked "O my dear friend! you claim to be my master!
my real self??my reflaection??
With dignity so low and confidence nil
You find us alike, still?
How can you be so insensitive?
I think good but you are always negative!
i do realise myself,and so i try
Even before facing,you cry.
a fraud is what you are.
To me ,you're nothing but a failure"
Taken aback,i fell silent.
I have changed--i could now see.
But,can't figure out what actually i wanna be!
I was alone amidst thousands
Bothered about people who least deserve me..
I promise to get back,happy is what i wanna be.
Somehow. . .
I met reflection yesterday
Smiling at me in a familiar way
as if asking "Where have you been?
For so long, that smile i hadn't seen."
Behind those brown eyes
That were actually mine
I could see the excitement arise
There came a bright shine
Thanking,it said "It hurt to be alone
Far from you!
And it truly is ecstatic to be back home
in you~~~
My 'Real' Self !"
looking at me in a strange way
as if asking "Who are you?"
Shocked,I replied "I am you!!!"
But behind those brown eyes
that were supposedly mine--
I didn't see any joy arise;
There came no shine!
Rather they scoffed back at me
questioning,"How could that be?"
Justifying, i said "My virtual self is what you are!"
"Is it?That's why you left me so far?"
An accusation ! ! A blame!
How dare it? REVENGE!!
I rebuked "you dont realise yourself? O what a shame!"
I thought to have set its ego aflame.
Surprisingly,it burst into laughter
and mocked "O my dear friend! you claim to be my master!
my real self??my reflaection??
With dignity so low and confidence nil
You find us alike, still?
How can you be so insensitive?
I think good but you are always negative!
i do realise myself,and so i try
Even before facing,you cry.
a fraud is what you are.
To me ,you're nothing but a failure"
Taken aback,i fell silent.
I have changed--i could now see.
But,can't figure out what actually i wanna be!
I was alone amidst thousands
Bothered about people who least deserve me..
I promise to get back,happy is what i wanna be.
Somehow. . .
I met reflection yesterday
Smiling at me in a familiar way
as if asking "Where have you been?
For so long, that smile i hadn't seen."
Behind those brown eyes
That were actually mine
I could see the excitement arise
There came a bright shine
Thanking,it said "It hurt to be alone
Far from you!
And it truly is ecstatic to be back home
in you~~~
My 'Real' Self !"
Friday, May 11, 2007
THE DAY I LIVED MY LIFE
on the soft green grass i lay,
listening to the crisp air say
a word of love tothe trees
which were dancing in the breeze
as if saying"i love u too.."
the sky above was so blue
clear with cloudlets so few.
all my tiredness were gone
with my tears wiped out,i was reborn.
i felt joy to my heart's content
as i could feel the tenderness of the moment.
the subtle beauty of time
the colours around~~ so bright,yet sublime
the bounty so very enthralled me
filled me with ecstacy and glee.
i was on the DREAMLAND EXPRESS
with a permanent smile hovering on my face
i headed towards the end of rainbow
the zephyr unruffled my hair
gifting me moments so very rare.
the birds' song sounded so soothing
the first time,i was living
careless,carefree....
with no worries to haunt--
no nightmares to taunt:
no one to be bothered about,
i felt so relaxed.
as i headed back home
i felt richer by experience
with the wonderfully spent instants
i felt divine.
longed to come back to this paradise
and let my emotions flow and mesmerise
and hold back the time for a while......
on the soft green grass i lay,
listening to the crisp air say
a word of love tothe trees
which were dancing in the breeze
as if saying"i love u too.."
the sky above was so blue
clear with cloudlets so few.
all my tiredness were gone
with my tears wiped out,i was reborn.
i felt joy to my heart's content
as i could feel the tenderness of the moment.
the subtle beauty of time
the colours around~~ so bright,yet sublime
the bounty so very enthralled me
filled me with ecstacy and glee.
i was on the DREAMLAND EXPRESS
with a permanent smile hovering on my face
i headed towards the end of rainbow
the zephyr unruffled my hair
gifting me moments so very rare.
the birds' song sounded so soothing
the first time,i was living
careless,carefree....
with no worries to haunt--
no nightmares to taunt:
no one to be bothered about,
i felt so relaxed.
as i headed back home
i felt richer by experience
with the wonderfully spent instants
i felt divine.
longed to come back to this paradise
and let my emotions flow and mesmerise
and hold back the time for a while......
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