FACT

"you think about yourself"-the words shattered me-i had thought so.i used to feel so cheated until yesterday when i learnt how selfish i had been for the past couple of months.how callous i had been to always speak about myself.moreover, i had been so shameless trying to hide the fact by putting the blame on life!

how could i mis the urge for a hug, in his eyes?how could i not support his staggering steps?how could i not notice that the smile that hovered on his face actually hid his tears?how could i not??how did i fail to decode his gestures-the art i claim to have mastered!i had been so cruel to tire the already fatigued figure."please speak up,mate"-words that actually indicated that he had loads to say, but i never gave him the opportunity.he wanted to rest his head:i gave him my shoulders-cold and stern.
even after all this,i take pride in my name!strange!

i always complained about his silence, his being aloof. but had i ever given it a thought that it was me, my incessant blabberings about my woes that silenced him!how stupid of me not to realise that i had robbed him of his vocabulary by my constant pesterings.again, a single word when reciprocated with,infuriates me: yet i want him to talk!its me-the hypocrite.how much i detested it then and how apt it appears now!i burdened him with my likes and dislikes,yet brewed the idea that i helped him unburden.
layers of cloth cover my skin now,yet i feel so naked!

i caused the smiling bespectacled face lose its shine.i was his death-eater and kissed his soul out.i turned him into a living libido.i never scanned beyond the cross compound barrier.i comforted him with words that actualy pinched his inside!i had drained him of all his emotions.
the air is filled with the fragrance of the early spring, yet i stink!

it was her nod that approved my decision-the apparent 'mutual' decision.
her loss of words and her gazing down,gave n\me the joy of having my words followed.her eyes reddened and her face,downcast escaped my notice.my vision was blocked with improbable aspects that i never realised what i had just done!i stabbed her , betrayed her and she enriched me with her smile-unadulterated.
i felt so chaep,so shhepish.i felt like a sucker.

"you know what. . ."-no sooner had this phrase escaped her lips than i spurt out ll my pains, my worries withot considering that she wanted to say something!

i claim to be a friend in need, but never found myself by a person in his times of necessity.how can i?to do so,one needs to have a listening ear-i have turned deaf by my own screams-useles cries of my soul!to help,one's heart needs to skip a beat or two-my heart never beats,it merely sounds 'lubb-dubb'.to see someone in pain, one needs caring eyes-my sight is blurred with obedient lacrymal secretions-the crocodile tears.i boasted about my 'huge' friends' circle,but now i find myself fetterd within a circle of diameter of i foot.

i smothered 'them',choked 'them'with agonizing pain,approached them according to my wish yet i sing out"am tired of being what you want me to be"--i lived upto my hypocrisy,disrespected their belief,blemished their friendship----i actually failed 'them'.

will anyone take me.the 'i'centric creature as his "mit"?the rhetoric is evident!