dear blog,

it s been ages that we are together--bonded by silent talks as well as talkative silence!
be it pain, ecstasy, love :i have found solace in you!! need to thank mr. kushal mehta for introducing you to me! may be i needed a listener, maybe i needed someone to act as a sink for my dry tears,or may be just as a storehouse, i decided to take that first step towards you! lo and behold-we became friends almost instantly!
my first post was slow, shaky! i measured my steps as i ventured deeper into you!
but the warmth was mesmerisingly comforting! i let loose!gave you green-the symbol of tranquil vibrancy, vivid serenity!! with time passing by, i realised your importance !by that time, i have found my buffer! other people entered and shared our lives, commented on posts! i liked it but the pleasure lay in the fact that i could be myself with you! you never complained bout my irregularity, me always talking about my woes, me changing names of characters to maintain anonymity(in a way, not sharing 100% details of the incidents with you)! instead you welcomed me with open arms giving me that warm hug when somebody else did not! i never realised your presence so vividly until i found out that how fake the essence of friendship is in college, and how people took pride in feigning one of the most beautiful relations of life!
i rediscovered you!
you tolerated my staggering hindi! :)
you hid my tears and pushed me towards a brighter tomorrow, a better morn!
sorry i never answered your reminders and took longer to post,even though miss rhea bhattacharya kept on asking me to blog! i apologise! may be i am self-centric! but the truth remains that your importance never diminished in my life!
i commented that i post to gain sympathy. i know you know that it is absolutely false!some body may comment that i should shun this "habit" of passing comments in relation. i need not dare argue with them and explain them the "why" behind it! you understand me!!!
but i feel every relation must go through phases -where one phase ends and another starts!

my venture or rather tryst with life to be happy forever has to end here! may b the reason might appear vague, baseless to the "elite" group out there. and i need not bother justify them!when i started i gave you the name "happy is wat i wana b ... 4evr"
inside i hoped that one day i would be able to erase those intermediate dots and rechristen you "happy i am!"
but that did not happen- not your fault at all!

just that things did not work out-or lets put it in the way that i could not put things right!
i believe that feeling never dies! it re-emerges in some form or the rather! its not hope but a promise that my relation with you will be reincarnated in a different form, a different style, in a different color, with a different dimension! for the time, i need to say goodbye-till we meet again! see you......soon!

miss you
love

mitankar