NARROW ESCAPE

i dared to go out for a walk after a disturbed night. eyes were weary, body tired, yet i needed to breathe some fresh air. i stumbled against the door, but still i set my foot out. the morning air- the chill in it - completely erased the botherations of the past days. i felt somewhat relaxed. the throbbing of my head stopped, the taunt nerves relaxed, i got carried away. i responded to the beckon of mother nature and moved on . oblivious of the fact that i had gone far away, i kept moving as if i have set out to prove newton's first law of motion. the fog thinned and the radiance of the morning sun spread all over. the warmth of the day seeped in and i perspired.

i felt a jolt inside and as usual, i ignored it. but soon, my feet grew heavier and my steps staggered. i halted. my head had started spinning. brushing it away, i tried to drag myself on but it was to difficult for me to overcome the inertia. suddenly, i felt fatigued and immensely impuissant--rather weak. i hired a rickshaw to go back. as the three-wheeler pedalled forward, the air brushed against my face and ruffled through my hair. but i felt no better. for the first time , i experienced complete black-out. i could see nothing. i had been using the term 'blurred vision' in many of my poems--but realised it in full form, for the first time. a thick opaque curtain had fallen across my eyes, as if. i felt so numb. i had held to the seat but felt my grip loosen. my ears were blocked as if tympanum had decided not to vibrate. for the first time i found myself completely cut-off from the outside--which i frequently describe as 'mundane'. i could feel my body slumping on to one side and i fell unconscious. i was shaken back to full sense by a cry and shrill horn of the truck that had just sped past my body, half hanging out of the vehicle. i realised how it had just missed smashing my head. poor luck, truckie!

awed at the narro\w escape and even more surprised at my luck--i could not stop laughing. by then, i had started feeling better-the dizziness dying down. i could sit upright.

i thank you all people who p[ray for my welfare. your 'fariyad's worked wonders today. but i felt extremely bad. why?????????????
i had just missed "knocking on heaven's door"!